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MSNBC Documentary Schedule 11-20 to 11-22

Hello, again, everyone! Here's how things look for this weekend. Saturday, we have a Lockup Marathon, and we launch a new season of Lockup, with an extended look at Limon Correctional Facility, a level 4 prison located on the barren plains of Eastern Colorado. Please join us on twitter and facebook ! Sunday, on the anniversary of JFK's death, we are reairing The Kennedy Brothers: A Hardball Documentary. During the afternoon, we have a Caught on Camera mini-marathon, including two all-new episodes of the popular series. And we cap off Green Week with our new 2-hour Future Earth film, 100 Heartbeats, with Jeff Corwin. You can see excerpts of this weekend's programming, as well as related videos at our website.

FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 20

10PM: The Longest Night: Secrets of the Austrian Cellar: This is the dark and unbelievable tale of Elisabeth Fritzl, an 18-year-old girl imprisoned for more than two decades in a cellar in Austria. There her tormenter raped her, there, she gave birth to seven children. Her tormentor, her own father, Josef Fritzl. This horrifying story of incest and torture only came to light after 24 years, when one of the so-called "cellar children" needed to go to the hospital.

11PM: The Real Texas Chainsaw Massacre: This film tells the haunting story of the gruesome double murder of two young Mormon missionaries in 1974. The prime suspect was Robert Kleasen, a charlatan with a string of criminal convictions, who escaped death row and managed to emigrate to a small rural town in Britain. There, he married an unsuspecting widow and integrated himself in to the local hunting and shooting community. Over time, his obsession with guns and his psychotic behavior began to reveal itself. But, it was not until a private investigator was hired by friends of Kleasen's worried wife that this serious criminal was finally exposed and arrested.

12AM: Gladiator Days: Anatomy of a Prison Murder : Across the United States, violent crime in prison is an everyday reality, with inmates routinely exposed to assault, riot, rape and murder. Produced by HBO Films, "Gladiator Days: Anatomy of a Prison Murder" examines the culture of institutional violence through the events that led to one brutal prison murder. Utah State Prison surveillance cameras capture this disturbing real-life account of the vicious stabbing of black inmate Lonnie Blackmon by convicted murderer, white supremacist Troy Kell and his accomplice Eric Daniels.

1AM: Lockup Raw: America's Toughest Jails : As one prison official puts it: "You're in a jail. There's no greater punishment in the world." Even some inmates voice concern about being placed in close proximity to "crack heads, dope fiends, rapists and murderers." Lockup producers have spent time at three of America's busiest and largest jails: L.A. County, Miami-Dade and New York's Rikers Island. They've found that these institutions represent a real cross section of life across the country, and each one has its own unique set of challenges.

2AM: Lockup: Special Investigation - Lake County Juvenile Justice: Kevin, Kymyada : Juvenile Court Judge Mary Beth Bonaventura observes that an indicator of what will happen in a child's life can be found by looking at the family and how supportive it has been. And the kids seem to know this, too. Sixteen-year-old Kevin Wells notes that, "Sometimes we need guidance in our life, and we need the parents to be there for us when we need them the most. And when you ain't got 'em, it just hurts." He's been at Lake County Juvenile for 3 months. It's been a long detainment, and not his first. Most offenders leave after their first hearing but Kevin has appeared before his judge three times because his mother failed to attend two court dates. While Kevin waits in limbo, just down the hall, an intake officer prepares to process Kymyada, a recurrent runaway, who says this arrest is just a big misunderstanding. Decades of research shows that peer pressure and family turmoil are the two biggest stressors leading to juvenile delinquency. For Kymyada, her relationship with her mom never seems to live up to what either of them expects.

SATURDAY, NOVEMBER 21

7PM: Lockup Holman: Extended Stay - The Shakedown : Alabama's Holman Correctional Facility is a Maximum Security prison and an environment that sometimes breeds violence. Inmates are constantly making weapons for protection and arming themselves to the teeth, and the officers must do whatever they can to curb future attacks. The challenge? Correctional officers are outnumbered 10 to 1 and are constantly searching more than 1000 inmates to find their home-made weapons, which are very sharp and very easy to conceal. But not enough staff and too many weapons can only lead to one thing. Only hours after our crew wrapped shooting, an inmate was stabbed in the honor dorm.

8PM: Lockup Holman: Extended Stay - Locked Up Love : Prison is a lonely place for any inmate. Relationships that existed on the outside become strained..And the ones that blossom within the prison walls are often dangerous. Or they can be simply a one-sided obsession, leading to nothing but trouble.

9PM: Lockup Raw: The Daily Grind : Every time the Lockup producers step into another prison, they're amazed by the world they've entered. It's violent, loud and very intimidating. And yet through it all, it's a fascinating place. But the daily grind of prison life has been known to push some inmates to the brink. While some use the time wisely, other inmates self-destruct.

10PM: Lockup Colorado: Extended Stay - "There Goes the Neighborhood" (PREMIERE): Welcome to Limon Correctional Facility , a level 4 prison located on the barren plains of Eastern Colorado. As a Level 4 facility, Limon houses many of Colorado's most dangerous inmates. Administrative Segregation, or Ad Seg, is a 23-hour a day lockup unit for disruptive inmates. And angry inmates often express their rage by flooding the Segregation Unit. The targets of their discontent include the prison's sex offenders. But the staff has the upper hand and the cell extraction team is called in to help.

11PM: Lockup Holman: Extended Stay - 'Til Death Do Us Part : Holman houses more than 170 men who have been sentenced to death and are awaiting execution, as well as roughly 360 who are serving life sentences without the possibility of parole. All are living with the inevitable…that their only chance of getting out of prison will be inside a coffin. For inmates serving these lengthy sentences, one day blends into the next, weeks into months, months into years. And a lifetime slips away. The challenge for these men is to find meaning in their lives and not surrender to hopelessness and despair.

12AM: Lockup Raw: Killers Among Us : One of the most intense things our Lockup field crews encounter when they go inside a maximum security prison is conducting interviews with murderers, often sitting five or six feet away from a very violent offender. But more often than not, they leave those conversations feeling like they just talked to somebody who's a normal, everyday guy.

1AM: Lockup Raw: Inmates Gone Wild : Lockup producers have come to realize that it's inaccurate to say there's never a dull moment in prison. In fact, there are plenty of dull moments. And all that monotony is broken up only by moments of sheer terror, fueled by explosive, negative energy. Our Lockup crews have found out many times that you never know when things will detonate.

SUNDAY, NOVEMBER 22

12PM: The Kennedy Brothers: A Hardball Documentary: Before John F. Kennedy entered the political scene, no politician had ever seemed so comfortable....so himself....in front of television cameras. While politicians of the past were forever frozen in black and white photos, the Kennedy brothers were a crisp color image. They brought to Washington a level of glamour previously seen only in Hollywood movies. But even the finest Hollywood director could never have cast such dashing leading men, nor could the finest screenwriter have conceived their tragic storyline. The MSNBC original documentary, "The Kennedy Brothers" deconstructs the myth and legend surrounding this quintessential American family. The documentary is reported by Chris Matthews, whose opportunity to work with and report on the Kennedys since the 1970s gives him a unique insight into their story. Matthews is also the author of the book, Kennedy and Nixon: The Rivalry That Shaped Postwar America. Matthews sits down with key Kennedy insiders, including Kathleen Kennedy Townsend, Frank Mankiewicz, biographer Peter Canellos, and presidential historian Doris Kearns Goodwin, to gain priviliged access to their opinions on this enigmatic family. "The Kennedy Brothers" delves deeply into the family's saga and seeks to discover why we as a nation not only embrace the family legend, but seem to have a desire to make their story our story. It takes viewers behind the Kennedy legacy, exposing the family's scandals, personal recklessness, and dashed hopes. The program's insider access helps us come to terms with what this family has meant for American history...and what its absence will mean for America's future.

3PM: Caught on Camera: Close Encounters with Death : A cruise ship is sinking, almost 600 lives hang in the balance, and the captain is nowhere to be found. It's left to a group of untrained, unqualified entertainers to pull off an extremely dangerous and dramatic rescue...Five kids plunge into frigid waters 12 feet deep and NYC rescue workers battle the elements to save them...A 17-month old boy is wedged 16 feet below ground, after falling into a well, but above ground, there's a a race against time. All the while, cameras are recording these amazing tales of survival!

4PM: Caught on Camera: Desperate and Dangerous : Life and death fights, vicious attacks, reckless and outrageous behavior...In this hour, you'll see criminals caught in the act, and caught by surprise; hostage-takers with nothing to lose; and Special Forces with everything on the line.

5PM: Caught on Camera: Video Vigilantes : One man wants the prostitutes in his neighborhood gone. Another wants government officials to play by the same rules as everybody else. And a woman summons the strength to protect her father. What all three of these people capture on camera is shocking, and it's in plain sight, or in their homes. They use their video cameras to fight for justice, for safer streets. And for their loved ones.

6PM: Caught on Camera: Trapped!(PREMIERE): A young rock climber can't go up...And a group of hotel guests can't get down. In this hour, with cameras rolling, we have several stories of people---trapped---in extremely tight spaces...and the most unusual places...These are tales of heroism, tragedy and triumph......When escape seems unlikely, and the hope for rescue is remote.

7PM: Caught on Camera: The Danger Zone(PREMIERE): Defying the rules, defying the odds, even defying gravity...It's all in a day's work for the extreme athlete. In sports like these, you can't reach such extremes without risking your very life, and these folks would have it no other way. As one of them says, "What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger."

8PM: Future Earth: 100 Heartbeats (2 hour) (PREMIERE) : This 2-hour program will tell the compelling stories of Earth's animal species, many of which are dangerously close to extinction. Today's rate of wildlife extinction is surpassed only by the mass extinction of dinosaurs, which occurred some 70 million years ago when an errant meteor found earth. Now, no meteors are necessary, as each year some 20,000 species go extinct. If you do the math, you can calculate that within the next 20 minutes, one unique species of animal life will simply disappear from our planet. Forever. But this special will focus not so much on extinction as survival -- we will tell poignant stories of recovery , profiling, for instance, the California condor, as it gloriously takes flight to the skies once again after nearly disappearing forever. We will also tell of the Herculean efforts by scientists to protect the last remaining black rhinos of Eastern Africa. The title One Hundred Heartbeats refers an exclusive club whose main membership requirement is diminishing numbers -- as these species are often quite literally just a heartbeat away from extinction. In an effort to provide the audience with a rich and complete experience, the series will travel from the genetics laboratory to the field, from protective captivity to repatriation to the wild, and do so on a global basis. The overall connective tissue for the series will be our powerful stories, spanning across the animal kingdom. Our program will incorporate the successes and failures along with the triumphs and tragedies that stem from the valiant efforts to save endangered species. Some of the featured species include: Bengal Tiger; Giant Panda; Mountain Gorilla; Black Rhino; California Condor; Florida Panther; Bald Eagle; Polar Bear; Sea Turtle. One Hundred Heartbeats also examines the important lifeworks of the charismatic individuals who have often put their lives in jeopardy to prevent the extinction of a species of life they are driven to save.

10PM: Caught on Camera: Survival of the Fittest : In this hour, we'll take a fascinating look at a world where bear bites woman, raging bulls run wild and a gorilla finds a toddler in her enclosure at the zoo... What happens next will take your breath away...And, we have the inside story of one of the most spectacular wild animal videos you'll ever see--the Battle at Kruger.

11PM: Future Earth: 100 Heartbeats (2 hour)

1AM: Caught on Camera: Survival of the Fittest

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{"commentId":5254682,"authorDomain":"jones-allen"}

It is obvious to me that a bunch of well intended white people put this program together. And of course missed the opportunity. I am one of ten kids my father raised all by himself because he promised to keep us together after my mother's mental health issues caused her to leave the family.

Quit beating this dead horse of struggling black men and search for programs that offer hope. And if there aren't any that is the problem.

I have been a prison reformer for many years after ten year of voluteering and I found the problem is not the young black men. The problem is white people in criminal justice work are repeat offenders of prejudice. And this mentality will never produce the program that will help young black men come up out of this revolving door of injustice.

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Reply#1 - Sun Feb 8, 2009 10:06 PM EST
{"commentId":7255202,"authorDomain":"alljunkmail"}

Blaming whites and other circumstances, is the primary cause to the revolving prison doors that have snared many black men. By blaming others, you have created a attitude of irresponsibility. Taking responsibility for our actions is the foremast act we owe to ourselves and will not enable us to continue in destructive behavior of ourselves and the victims of crimes.

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#1.1 - Sun May 24, 2009 6:04 AM EDT
{"commentId":10452739,"authorDomain":"smitten157"}

Allen I have to agree with you. No matter what happens whites or anyone else that is prejudice will always try to bring you down. When you try and turn yourself around and do better there's always someone there to try and bring you down.

People in our society don't realize that the stories that come out in the mainstream about people succeeding represents such a small number of our society. But it is a big deal that they have overcome whatever hardship that they have faced but the reality is, most people view convicts, inmates as people that do not deserve a chance especially those who are of color. Until people that have this prejudice realize that color really doesn't matter and the person trying to change does, we won't ever get anywhere and it will be a revolving door of injustice as you so eloquently put it.

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    #1.2 - Tue Nov 3, 2009 4:11 PM EST
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    {"commentId":5864521,"authorDomain":"ame910"}

    I hope someone reads this to gain real true insight into how sexual abuse as a child from experience affects their life. if they can have a normal life.

    I watched your program about the predator next door and this is the sad and most disturbing problem that the offenders who do not get convicted because the child never told anyone at that time and waited to late to report the incident, the offender was never convicted and therfore is left out there to prey on other innocent children. It is so unfair that because of no conviction due to circumstances, the victim does not even have the rights to tell everyone and warn them about this person or the victim could face harassement charges or be sued, when the victim is only trying to prevent this from happening to another child. There is really something wrong about this.

    The one thing I have never understood is how when this has happened to you and how it has ruined your life, how this victim could do this to another child and prepetuate the same agony and pain on another innocent child that will stay with this child for the rest of his/her life. Please someone explain that too me!!!

    This happened to me and all I ever wanted to do was to protect other children from going through the same thing as I have and the difference ,I can only think of is that when this Tom or Luke whichever compared this to the killing of a child and why when they get out of prison that they are not required to register. My response to that number one I guess is that the killing of a child first of all the person should not be allowed out of prison. He should spend his life in prison suffering hopefully as he has brand upon this poor child, mother and father.

    A sexual predator I believe should never be let out of prison anyway and if they are then they should for one not be eligible for unemployment (ridiculous), they deserve no life as they have perpetuated no life for or hope for a normal life for their victim. When are people finally going to get it. When this crime is enflicted on a child, what this does to their life as they grow older and try to form normal relationships and attempt a productive life. The predator should not cry or complain because he cannot get a job or his life is ruined because of what he has done to the victims life. WHAT about the victims and there are many predators out there that no one knows about and have the right to know about to protect the children.

    I really wish I could help some other child not have to go through what I have gone through and continue to go through.

    If there is anything I can do to help anyone else, please let me know

    Elizabeth

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      Reply#2 - Tue Mar 10, 2009 8:06 PM EDT
      {"commentId":7255328,"authorDomain":"alljunkmail"}

      ELIZABETH,

      YOU STATED" ... if they can have a normal life. "...

      My sister was molested at a young age, from 8-12 years old. Her life is one full of drugs, self-hatred, promiscuity when she was younger, ( 17-25), complete lack of trust toward all people, including her husband. Long periods of sexual dysfunction, depression, irrational fears, and other problematic behaviors.

      The tax payer is paying her to live through SSDI. She has been through at least 50 therapist. And takes a daily cocktail of medicines to attempt to stabilize her behavior. Her sexual assault was not violent or forceful. But imagine the added problems had it been.

      Thus, your insight, " ... if they can have a normal life. "...is accurate. No most cannot function personally or professionally. I expect my sister to pass away shortly due to a lifetime of drugs and drinking. The person who hurt her was never bought to justice as she did not say anything until 15 years ago. And prior to that there was a statuette of limitations.

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      #2.1 - Sun May 24, 2009 7:16 AM EDT
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      {"commentId":5932561,"authorDomain":"fiveboys12345"}

      Dear MSNBC,

      I would like to know when the longest night will air again I keep missing this unbelievable, and disturbing story.

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        Reply#3 - Sat Mar 14, 2009 10:13 AM EDT
        {"commentId":6034454,"authorDomain":"binder"}

        Hello, Sophia,

        You'll be pleased to know we're updating the show to reflect Josef Fritzl's guilty plea, conviction and sentencing and will re-air it on Sunday at 9PM.

        -Ainslie Binder

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          #3.1 - Thu Mar 19, 2009 12:02 PM EDT
          {"commentId":6142422,"authorDomain":"fiveboys12345"}

          Dear Msnbc,

          I thought that you would be emailing me personally, I am sorry never thought to look on here again until tonight. Please could let me know when this will air again, or were can I buy this story . Since I can seem to catch in late night. I am such a spaz as my kids says.

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            #3.2 - Wed Mar 25, 2009 2:13 AM EDT
            {"commentId":6144858,"authorDomain":"fiveboys12345"}

            Dear Msnbc,

            Thank you for replying personal via email, yes I got that in my 1st email that you replied to , that the program that I was inquirying about had aired 3/22/09. I missed it. Please refer to my 2nd email.

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              #3.3 - Wed Mar 25, 2009 9:21 AM EDT
              {"commentId":8667408,"authorDomain":"binder"}

              Hello,

              We are re-airing this program on August 16 at 9PM Eastern time.

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                #3.4 - Thu Aug 6, 2009 3:07 PM EDT
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                {"commentId":6009455,"authorDomain":"missdeelynn7"}

                I would like to know when this documentary will air again, I never knew anything about it until today. And I have been surfing the web to try to find out when or how to watch it and I keep coming back to your page which only shows the first 3 minutes of the documentary. Please tell me how I can watch this program.

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                  Reply#4 - Wed Mar 18, 2009 9:06 AM EDT
                  {"commentId":6097469,"authorDomain":"laughlan"}

                  LOCKED AND LOADED.......a disgraceful distortion......do you really need some Brit looking for faults in U.S. society to promote this inaccurate "documentary"? casual ownership of automatic weapons, incorrectly calling an apparent m-16 type rifle an ak-47 etc. etc. what happened to objectivity?

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                    Reply#5 - Sun Mar 22, 2009 11:05 PM EDT
                    {"commentId":6099079,"authorDomain":"marks-moshe"}

                    Dear MSNBC, my heart breaks because boys get raped too,

                    I applaud your coverage of this heinous act. There are no words that can express my saddness for this young woman and her lost life.

                    Please do not mistake my email for a negative commentary. I mean only to take the moment, here when you have so bravely exposed such cruelty, to offer that we males get raped and our lives are ruined as well.

                    I am a 59 year old man who suffered repeated rapes and beatings at the hands of my father from ages 6-13. He methodically trained me through vicious brutality how to be his sex slave and proceeded to share me with his friends. Worse, my mother was aware of it all, and has since confessed so.

                    It was the ruin of my life. I had a successful carreer in the entertainment industry, under my professional name Chuck Marks, (Disney, Sr. Financial Analyst for EPCOT, Commercials, Show openers, Radio Free Sydney NIKE.com for 2000 Olympics) just to let you know I'm not a nut. I was COO, CFO and Executive Producer for Spike Entertainment for the Olympics and have led other studios. But I never found freedom from my horrors. I have decided to come out to the world because none of the hell had to happen.

                    I recently finished a book, "Slave, Slave, Freedom," detailing my life from 6 to present and how, only after a complete collapse in 2004, did I begin my recovery. I was fortunate enough to have a brilliant therapyst and an equally brilliant procedure.

                    Below I have offered some of it to hopefully explain my life as I knew it. Thank you for the time.

                    DEDICATION


                    This manuscript is dedicated to my younger brother, “Bobby,” who gave me unconditional love and support, and, as a victim, died, too young, too sad, and too broken.

                    Your loving brother,
                    Moshe


                    ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

                    My greatest appreciation to the following, who, without their collective support, confidence, and encouragement this effort would not have been possible.

                    My Grandparents who established, within my person, a core set of values, ensuring survival, during the most, dire of circumstances. In particular, Grandma, whose love, guidance and sense of humor, kept my light burning.

                    Nirah Johnson for her careful and gentle leadership through this arduous, painful journey.

                    Rabbi J. Rolando Matalon who embraced my despair with dignity and respect.

                    Rabbi Simkha Y. Weintraub for his unwavering support, who led me during the darkest hours of my life, helped me recapture my “Faith,” and who assured me that I had a purpose.

                    Jim Boese, my dearest friend, who has long championed my “efforts,” and never questioned “why” only “how” he could offer his hand.

                    Vickee Larson-Poole whose 40-year friendship, trust and dedication enabled her to attack this project with sensitivity and dignity.

                    Most of all to ha-Shem for life, gift of a brother, challenges, guides, and opportunities, I am humbled.


                    Introduction
                    This manuscript is the open book, detailed chronologically, of my story in hopes that it’s ugly reality has a positive impact on, “Child Abuse.” The process, by which I was able to disclose the many gory details and own my reality, I believe, is of infinite value. One overwhelming factor discovered during this exercise was the confirmation that these heinous acts were exacted upon me under the watchful eye of my, “Jewish Mother.” Ironically, my faith was, in many ways my, lifeline. However, in light of recent exposure disclosing, the fallacy in conventional belief that religious families and institutions are safety zones for children, I hold true the aforementioned fact warrants extra emphasis.


                    I am a survivor of sexual and physical abuse and essentially modern day slavery at the hands of my biological Father. Our brutal, incestuous relationship began when I was a child of six and ended at thirteen upon the heels of my parents divorce. I discovered solace in academic over-achievement, isolationism and self-hatred. The trauma and damage inflicted, within those horrific seven years, left me grasping for a lifeline while floundering aimlessly in search of direction. At thirteen and perceived by my Mother and step Father as, “damaged goods,” I was relegated to that “position of servitude.” As such, the majority of my teen years were filled with the duties of being nanny, housekeeper and driver. From that time, onward, I seamlessly embodied the lifeless soul of a slave, until at fifty, I broke free from my shackles and claimed my long sought freedom.


                    Throughout my life many foes have undertaken the destruction of my dreams, my faith and me, only to reap bitter disappointment, by a force more fervent than can be imagined. This marvelous power lifted me when I was drowning, carried me when I would falter and held me close when all hope seemed lost. Unfortunately the early assassination of my ego precluded any ability to recognize this saving grace, giving way to an existence of anguish, nightmares and haunting.


                    For thirty-five years I struggled under a shroud of confusion and shame, while becoming increasingly overwhelmed by “Demons” of past trauma, haunting my restless nights. We woke, lived, and retired as one. Each day as evening fell, they’d usher me into a new night of horror that would only subside, when exhaustion overpowered me. In my dreams they laughed and mocked my agony, their long curved claws taking random swipes shredding my flesh, in a gruesome bloody charade. The vivid imagery, allowed me to feel each hit often recoiling in pain and awakening in cold sweats.


                    Years became decades and I progressively lost the battle sensing defeat at my doorstep. In desperation I chose the only recourse I believed would bring relief. My options were few. To eliminate them I would have to kill them. To kill them I would have to kill myself, and so I tried, often, and failed.


                    There are two sides to every coin and I was no exception. My profession was my reprieve, I busied myself with work or any other distracting activity, and so it was for many years, by night I would lead an ongoing nightmare of fighting and hiding from my tortured persona and during the day carving my niche in the entertainment Industry. My career soared as I found unbridled success in each project I undertook. I returned to over achieving, finding it kept the demons at bay and me safe. By my forty-ninth birthday I was CFO, COO and Executive Producer of an international production studio. I had become a successful body-builder and recaptured my outdoorsman status as a ski instructor, a second trek to the Havasupi reservation in the Grand Canyon and climbing three peaks of the Sierras. On the many restless nights I rode my mountain bike, for miles along the pacific shoreline, until I’d tire. But demons don’t rest they just wait.


                    In late ’99 I had a heart attack and by 2000 I was, a shell of, my former self, so medically consumed that I required a driver and full time personal assistant. The studio bought out my contract and released me. Following months of recovery I eased back into consciousness and the waiting grip of those gruesome creatures. It was as if we had never parted, the chase was on again, as were the assaults. Hopeless I turned to self-medicating and ran to NYC praying that my “home” environment would be the antidote.


                    The situation turned from bad to worse. I agreed to partner with a studio, arrived September 8th 2001 and found myself in a professional quagmire. On 9/11, I joined the first responders for several days. In retrospect, while I felt an obligation to help and pride in doing so, I also found digging in the pit, finding body parts, a welcome diversion from the awful professional mess I had leapt into.
                    Distraction for me has always meant relief.


                    By Spring 2002, while shooting a film for the studio, my partner and her son “took the money and ran,” leaving me with 98k worth of bills and a destroyed compilation of files on my computer; I had been set up.


                    I tried desperately to book a job. I had been a successful producer and was confident I’d pull myself out of this quicksand. My first call was to a long time friend at HBO. He not only held senior positions on both “The Sopranos” and “Sex and the City,” but had recently landed “Rome” as well. Of course I asked him for help. Listen carefully and take heed; “if you ever find yourself in such a situation and trust your professional friends will rally around you in troves of support, get a grip on reality.” After exhausting my “personal,” list to no avail, I began an intense interview process. Nada. Not a commercial, show opener, nothing. I couldn’t even find an office clerks filing position. It was as though I was a “leper” and an “old one” at that.


                    My friend had to move to Rome for work and as he put it, “You need a job and I need a house sitter, someone to watch my cats and a personal-assistant. I’ll give you $60.00 a week if you want it.” It was true I was at the end of a short rope, but it was his evil arrogance, that made me want to “@!$%#” slap him. I camouflaged the stinging sadness from what felt like the final blow laying waste to my valiant efforts, decimating my dignity in the process and thrusting me into a downward freefall.
                    Now the demons were ecstatic compounding my physical horrors with their unremitting attacks. Within a blink I was back to square one, sensing the end was closing in on me. Beaten up but not beaten, kicking, breathing and from my lowest point, I scraped together every penny I had and developed a new business, hoping to keep my mind and body busy, thereby abating suffering. But alas, I had joined with another group of dogs, throwing caution to the wind, letting down my fragile defenses and pretending all I had to do was “stay engaged.”


                    Exhausted from incessant conflicts, I ignored obvious danger signs and in a flash my life was again consumed with professional disasters. I became ill and this time there was no escape or reprieve with nothing to abate the desolation. One day on 7th Avenue, I thought I was going to pass out from the pain and pressure, unable to shake my tormentors. I panicked and reeled as I surrendered to yet another all consuming ambush and staggered home to rest.
                    In my dream I was powerless as they escorted me to join in their demonic dance. They laughed and swirled me around in space, slowly torturing and violating me, as I pleaded for slumber. As this blitz of endless battering took its’ heavy toll, I found myself at the edge of a forest, exposed, vulnerable and disoriented. I pulled free of their crushing grip and slowly stumbled then fell into the deep grass. I lifted my head mustering the strength in a last attempt to flee, drug my weak and bloodied body to its’ feet, and with blurred vision, took my first step toward security. It was me and I was back. Moreover, I was determined to beat these demons at their own game with my instinct to survive becoming my mantra.
                    In the distance was a vision. Putting one foot in front of the other I trudged forward, exhausted and weary until I reached it, a glowing fortress. The keepers opened its’ gate, as I staggered inside. The caretakers of this enchanting bastion defied my pursuers but there were no takers. It was over and I was safe. I wept rivers of tears as I slept dreaming of angels ushering me through the truth into a healthy recovery.


                    When I awoke I was an old man with a heavy heart clothed in white linen. I was alone in a bed of comfort and security my head still reeling as I rested on the soft goose down pillows, but the pain was no more. The door to the room was ajar flooding the space with a serene light. I left to discover that it hadn’t been a dream, the angels were real, I was safe and given an opportunity to finish my life and answer G-d’s beckoning.


                    Life, as I know it now, often feels like an invigorating waterfall washing away my tears. Clean and fresh it’s now a constant, always there to rejuvenate and nourish me. Those times when it feels overwhelming and exasperating, I revel in my cherished liberty no longer a slave, flooding myself with hope, strength and most of all faith. It took half a century and I lost so much, but how can we assess the value of freedom?


                    Moshe Marks

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                      Reply#6 - Mon Mar 23, 2009 2:43 AM EDT
                      {"commentId":6222341,"authorDomain":"wherbie2wherbie"}

                      the series sexual preditors on dateline , while interesting, is rather one sided...lets see chris hansen is imploring the accused perv. to " be honest"...well the decoy girl is not 13, and is very skilled at deception, claims to be a boy sometimes, and a virgin. in a public chat room trolling for excitement....and very knowledgeable in sexual areas beyond her age...the man...well the word ...stupid...comes to mind...cyberspace, while titulating...can be dangerous...NBS has been sucessfully sued for 100million dollars , by the sister of the texas prosicutor, who killed himself after a predatory ambush show...ask youself...is it a balanced view of sex on the internet?...while police in 3 states try to prosicute 14 year old girls for posting naked pictures of themselves on myspace, and facebook...and email pictures of themselves naked to class mates with cell phones...lets be honest....and ask why the average age for " loss of virginity" in girls ...goes down every year...your right there , in the chat rooms, lets see some " balanced " journalism and put some 13 14 15 year old " sluts" on the preditor show...oh...their isnt any?...think again...you know all the tricks...find some fat old 45 year old bald me , too weave a web of sexual deception and see if they can score....

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                        Reply#7 - Mon Mar 30, 2009 12:16 AM EDT
                        {"commentId":6870319,"authorDomain":"kraftsman"}

                        How can you possibly claim that and it is adults not children who should have the moral fortitude to say this isn't right. In todays society, unfortunately, everyone is bombarded with sexual innuendos on a daily basis, regardless of age. The adults have to be the childrens advocates regardless of the childs behavior. Give them a chance to grow up so they can better understand the world around them and how instant gratification isn't worth the long term consequences.

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                          #7.1 - Mon May 4, 2009 5:21 AM EDT
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                          {"commentId":6337120,"authorDomain":"cruellaspet"}

                          I missed "My Mother's Garden". Will it air again, and when? Thank you.

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                          Reply#8 - Mon Apr 6, 2009 10:23 AM EDT
                          {"commentId":6376551,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                          Yes, but probably not until late this month or in May. Please check back here weekly to see if it's on the schedule.

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                            #8.1 - Wed Apr 8, 2009 12:13 PM EDT
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                            {"commentId":6436338,"authorDomain":"jobietucker"}

                            Unfortunately, I missed "Dear Zachary." Can you tell me when you will re-air it? Thanks!

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                              Reply#9 - Sat Apr 11, 2009 4:34 PM EDT
                              {"commentId":6682811,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                              It should air again soon, so keep your eye on this page to see when it reappears on the schedule.

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                                #9.1 - Fri Apr 24, 2009 12:15 PM EDT
                                {"commentId":8667463,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                Hello,

                                Dear Zachary will air on Sunday, August 6 at 4PM Eastern time.

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                                  #9.2 - Thu Aug 6, 2009 3:08 PM EDT
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                                  {"commentId":6440062,"authorDomain":"wiiyzmama"}

                                  I was wondering when will the new lockup: michigan city air?

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                                    Reply#10 - Sat Apr 11, 2009 10:31 PM EDT
                                    {"commentId":6689314,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                    I believe you are referring to Lockup Indiana: Extended Stay. That 6 part series premieres on Memorial Day, and will run on consecutive Saturdays through June 27.

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                                      #10.1 - Fri Apr 24, 2009 4:29 PM EDT
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                                      {"commentId":6481835,"authorDomain":"lulu359"}

                                      Hi Does msnbc have any plans to reair their special "Hooked: Tattoes Head to Toe" The documentary originally aired on Aug. 2008 and I really wanted to see it or get a copy of the full show. Can anyone help me with this??

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                                        Reply#11 - Tue Apr 14, 2009 4:15 PM EDT
                                        {"commentId":6482017,"authorDomain":"lulu359"}

                                        The original airdate was 8/3/08. I'd love a copy of this documentary if possible.

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                                          Reply#12 - Tue Apr 14, 2009 4:22 PM EDT
                                          {"commentId":6682765,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                          Hello,

                                          This program does re-air on a somewhat regular basis, so please keep your eye on this page to see when it will reappear on the schedule.

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                                            #12.1 - Fri Apr 24, 2009 12:13 PM EDT
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                                            {"commentId":6633760,"authorDomain":"richardsonfranny"}

                                            I was wondering will your show or as your show lock up done a taping at the Turney Center Prison in Only, TN? If so when or has it aired?

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                                              Reply#13 - Wed Apr 22, 2009 1:23 PM EDT
                                              {"commentId":6701447,"authorDomain":"crimgrrl"}

                                              I noticed Dear Zachary was scheduled for April 26 and even set my DVR to record it...however when I recommended a friend do the same we noticed it has been replaced by sex slaves. Is this correct and if so when can we expect to see Dear Zachary again? It was the most profound piece of filmmaking I have ever seen and I want all of my friends and family to see it. Thanks.

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                                                Reply#14 - Sat Apr 25, 2009 11:42 AM EDT
                                                {"commentId":6812877,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                Hello, Laura,

                                                "Dear Zachary" should air before the end of June. Please keep your eye on this page as well as docs.msnbc.com for more information.

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                                                  #14.1 - Thu Apr 30, 2009 12:47 PM EDT
                                                  {"commentId":8667493,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                  Hello, Laura,

                                                  Dear Zachary is airing on Sunday, August 9 at 4PM

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                                                    #14.2 - Thu Aug 6, 2009 3:09 PM EDT
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                                                    {"commentId":6716596,"authorDomain":"newsovern"}

                                                    I find it hard to watch MSNBC programs since the published schedule is ignored. When I turned on MSNBC on Sunday at about 2:45 PM (15 minutes early) to watch Witch Hunt at 3PM, it was on early and about to end. Meet the Press was shown at the scheduled time for Witch Hunt.

                                                    It is hardly worth watching your channel, since your schedule is often wrong.

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                                                      Reply#15 - Sun Apr 26, 2009 3:33 PM EDT
                                                      {"commentId":6716636,"authorDomain":"newsovern"}

                                                      I find it hard to watch MSNBC programs since the published schedule is ignored. When I turned on MSNBC on Sunday at about 2:45 PM (15 minutes early) to watch Witch Hunt at 3PM, it was on early and about to end. Meet the Press was shown at the scheduled time for Witch Hunt.

                                                      It is hardly worth watching your channel, since your schedule is often wrong.

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                                                        Reply#16 - Sun Apr 26, 2009 3:37 PM EDT
                                                        {"commentId":6733555,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                        Hi, Sue,

                                                        So sorry for the confusion over the schedule. Witch Hunt is a marvelous documentary, and you have great taste. We have many more programs of that caliber coming up over the next weeks and months. Please keep your eye on this page, as well as docs.msnbc.com for more information. In the meantime, you can e-mail me directly (ainslie.binder@msnbc.com) if you'd still like to see Witch Hunt, and I can arrange for you to get a copy.

                                                        Best regards,

                                                        Ainslie Binder

                                                        Producer

                                                        MSNBC Longform Programming

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                                                          #16.1 - Mon Apr 27, 2009 3:05 PM EDT
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                                                          {"commentId":6722642,"authorDomain":"michelle-delano"}

                                                          Dear Zachary was supposed to be on April 26 at 11pm, and it wasn't. Why not? And when will it air?

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                                                            Reply#17 - Sun Apr 26, 2009 11:21 PM EDT
                                                            {"commentId":8510362,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                            Hello,

                                                            It's currently scheduled for August 9 at 4PM ET.

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                                                              #17.1 - Wed Jul 29, 2009 1:33 PM EDT
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                                                              {"commentId":6722795,"authorDomain":"michelle-delano"}

                                                              Why wasn't "Dear Zachary" aired as scheduled on April 26 at 11pm? when will it be aired next?

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                                                                Reply#18 - Sun Apr 26, 2009 11:32 PM EDT
                                                                {"commentId":6788989,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                                So sorry for the confusion over the schedule. Dear Zachary will air again within the next few weeks. Please keep your eye on this page, as well as docs.msnbc.com for more information.

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                                                                  #18.1 - Wed Apr 29, 2009 3:53 PM EDT
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                                                                  {"commentId":6736358,"authorDomain":"dave-kaliher"}

                                                                  The documentary series "Future Earth: Journey to the End of the World" started last night on the MSNBC channel in our area. I found the first segment to be very interesting, and am looking forward to seeing the other three segments. But I cannot find out from anyone or any website when they will be airing. Does anyone that reads this discussion know when the next three segments will be on?

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                                                                    Reply#19 - Mon Apr 27, 2009 4:47 PM EDT
                                                                    {"commentId":6746977,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                                    Hello, Dave,

                                                                    The next 3 episodes will air later in the year. Keep your eyes on futureearth.msnbc.com and this page for more info.

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                                                                      #19.1 - Tue Apr 28, 2009 9:44 AM EDT
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                                                                      {"commentId":6749741,"authorDomain":"keith-marchesi"}

                                                                      Will you be re-airing "Future Earth: Journey to the End of the World" that aired last Sunday April 26th again? I'd like to see it but missed it.

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                                                                        Reply#20 - Tue Apr 28, 2009 11:58 AM EDT
                                                                        {"commentId":6788736,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                                        Yes, it will be on again this Sunday, May 3rd at 7PM.

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                                                                          #20.1 - Wed Apr 29, 2009 3:49 PM EDT
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                                                                          {"commentId":6822408,"authorDomain":"yearsofrefusal"}

                                                                          Have you ever thought of releasing Lockup on DVD? I had a family get-together a while ago and a Lockup marathon was on and everyone was glued to the television. It's a great program.

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                                                                            Reply#21 - Thu Apr 30, 2009 8:30 PM EDT
                                                                            {"commentId":6834945,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                                            Hi, Kim,

                                                                            Yes, we do have such a plan. In fact, the first season of Lockup Raw will be released on DVD this summer. You should be able to pre-order via our website, lockup.msnbc.com, in a couple of weeks.

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                                                                              #21.1 - Fri May 1, 2009 2:20 PM EDT
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                                                                              {"commentId":6865329,"authorDomain":"depgra"}

                                                                              Today is 5/3/09. I just finished reading "Secrets in the Celler" by John Glatt and when I turned on MSNBC this afternoon at 2:55 Longest Night had just finished. I'm terribly disapointed that I missed it and thought I might ask if it is going to be re-aired anytime soon. I am very interested to see this documantery. Please let me know.

                                                                              Thank you,

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                                                                                Reply#22 - Sun May 3, 2009 6:32 PM EDT
                                                                                {"commentId":6872466,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                                                Hello,

                                                                                This documentary does re-air frequently, so please keep your eye on this page, as well as docs.msnbc.com for more information. Thanks for watching MSNBC!

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                                                                                  #22.1 - Mon May 4, 2009 10:19 AM EDT
                                                                                  {"commentId":8510419,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                                                  Hello,

                                                                                  The Longest Night is currently scheduled to air 8/16 at 9PM.

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                                                                                    #22.2 - Wed Jul 29, 2009 1:35 PM EDT
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                                                                                    {"commentId":7136350,"authorDomain":"mmchrism76"}

                                                                                    I was wondering when the Sex Slaves Documentary will air again?

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                                                                                      Reply#23 - Sun May 17, 2009 8:34 PM EDT
                                                                                      {"commentId":7208224,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                                                      All 3 episodes in the series are currently scheduled to air in June. Keep your eyes on this page and docs.msnbc.com for details. Thanks for watching!

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                                                                                        #23.1 - Thu May 21, 2009 12:03 PM EDT
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                                                                                        {"commentId":7463413,"authorDomain":"teegee531"}

                                                                                        Why is it impossible to find a credible programming lineup for the weekends?

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                                                                                          Reply#24 - Thu Jun 4, 2009 2:13 PM EDT
                                                                                          {"commentId":7464047,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                                                          Hello,

                                                                                          I'm not sure what you mean, but the schedule posted here is updated weekly, and is currently an accurate reflection of what MSNBC will be airing in prime time, as well as selected other hours, this weekend.

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                                                                                            #24.1 - Thu Jun 4, 2009 2:33 PM EDT
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                                                                                            {"commentId":7630270,"authorDomain":"mdcochran3"}

                                                                                            I was just wondering about the videos of the documentaries online. Everytime I watch one, it will either skip the episodes I choose completely, or stop them halfway through. Is it just a bug in the system or am I missing something?

                                                                                            Please right me back on my home email thank you.

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                                                                                              Reply#25 - Sat Jun 13, 2009 7:58 PM EDT
                                                                                              {"commentId":7655557,"authorDomain":"binder"}

                                                                                              I will forward your comment to the appropriate people. Please send me an e-mail at ainslie.binder@msnbc.com so I will know how to reach you.

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                                                                                                #25.1 - Mon Jun 15, 2009 2:56 PM EDT
                                                                                                {"commentId":7657771,"authorDomain":"echuck"}

                                                                                                Hi there mdcochran,

                                                                                                We're not sure why you're having this problem, but have you checked to make sure you have the most recent version of Flash? Downloading it here might help: http://get.adobe.com/flashplayer/

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                                                                                                  #25.2 - Mon Jun 15, 2009 4:43 PM EDT
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